A Little Complaining
It's been over a week now. Some of you may be bored with my posts, but I promise that the focus will change with time. I started this blog as an opportunity to share my insights as I prepared and studied for Sunday School classes and small groups. This meant that almost anything I read or any encounter I had was fair game.
Last week, though, I had a life-changing experience. I know, it could have been much worse. Many of you have had experiences that changed your lives as much or more than mine has. I realize every day how blessed I am to have the opportunities I have. And every word I type is underscored with the knowledge and faith that I am held in the hands of a loving God who has a plan for me. He is in control and I praise Him for who He is.
The biggest change I have had is in going from someone who can do everything for himself (even though Gena is not supposed to know this) to someone who can do almost NOTHING for himself. The smallest thing now requires my dependence on someone else. I have to call (or text) the kids to come to my room to help me put on a sock, or put in a movie, or change the thermostat. I can do these things, but the effort expends so much energy that I am unable to do much else.
Other things I miss doing: showering, driving, fixing my own meals and snacks, looking out the window when I hear kids sledding down the hill, letting the dog out, answering the doorbell... believe it or not, I am keeping a list.
The greatest part of this though is being brought back to the realization that I am not in charge. God has a plan. He is teaching me lessons (even though they are not the lessons on MY schedule). He is developing traits and characteristics in me that I have not focused on before. I will be patient, I will be faithful, and I will praise Him for who He is. My life, my possessions, my time, my talents.... they all belong to Him anyway. He can use them as He pleases.
Last week, though, I had a life-changing experience. I know, it could have been much worse. Many of you have had experiences that changed your lives as much or more than mine has. I realize every day how blessed I am to have the opportunities I have. And every word I type is underscored with the knowledge and faith that I am held in the hands of a loving God who has a plan for me. He is in control and I praise Him for who He is.
The biggest change I have had is in going from someone who can do everything for himself (even though Gena is not supposed to know this) to someone who can do almost NOTHING for himself. The smallest thing now requires my dependence on someone else. I have to call (or text) the kids to come to my room to help me put on a sock, or put in a movie, or change the thermostat. I can do these things, but the effort expends so much energy that I am unable to do much else.
Other things I miss doing: showering, driving, fixing my own meals and snacks, looking out the window when I hear kids sledding down the hill, letting the dog out, answering the doorbell... believe it or not, I am keeping a list.
The greatest part of this though is being brought back to the realization that I am not in charge. God has a plan. He is teaching me lessons (even though they are not the lessons on MY schedule). He is developing traits and characteristics in me that I have not focused on before. I will be patient, I will be faithful, and I will praise Him for who He is. My life, my possessions, my time, my talents.... they all belong to Him anyway. He can use them as He pleases.
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